Autism: What It’s Like To Live In Two Worlds

Imagine that you had been born in two separate worlds, in the same time but in two different dimensions; like a parallel universe. What you do in one dimension affects the other and vice versa, but one of them has the tendency to be more vivid, more fun and comfortable than the other world. The other world is dull, boring and full of pain raiders, and is occasionally interesting. The light in this dull world is bright and sparkly, that sometimes leads you to hysteric craziness, agony mixed with pain. Kind of a very bright light that gives you the feels that your eyes are burning inside out. Suddenly there is a rackety loud sound appearing from nowhere, it is slipping to your ear drums, you cover it, but that itchy noise is still slipping into it. You cry out and shout from the pain, your whole body is tensioned; like a can inside a crushing machine, almost to be crushed, to shut down.

Screaming and crying out, people around you had turned down the volume of the noisy TV, and turned off the bright lights of the room, but you are still uncontrollably screaming like; a hysteric soldier in a battlefield/bombing site. Screaming your lungs out instinctively, as a hopeless attempt to ease the pain, to stop the light, to stop the sound, to block the burning sensation that’s invading your tiny sensitive body. You started to rally there, in and out from one world to the other, till the two infused with each other. You run and kick the air like a havoc tornado inside the tiny place you are living in.

Unexpectedly, you feel a strong grip of someone around your body, hugging you. It’s your mom. She pats on your back and head, while she whispers “It’s okay!” to your distressed soul. Finally, your nervous system starts to loosen up and ease down, you crawl back into your beautiful inner world, while sitting on your mom’s lap, rocking back and forth trying to sooth yourself by this consistent movement that you’re not quite sure how you have come to learn.

Crawling into your mind like a wounded soldier, crawling on your knees and elbows till you reach the door to your own vivid, magnificent universe, you run inside that opened door, and slam it behind you. You sit there calmly watching the world within your two-sided brain, while rocking your body in the other world. They are trying to talk to you but you don’t reply, as you are wandering freely inside your exquisite hidden world, and in the other one you are rocking back and forth.

I have tried to give you a glimpse of what is going on inside the body and mind of a child suffering from autism. But first, what is autism?

Autism is the most severe developmental disability. Appearing within the first three years of life, autism involves impairments in social interaction — such as being aware of other people’s feelings — and verbal and nonverbal communication.

Some people with autism have limited interests, strange eating or sleeping behaviors or a tendency to do things to hurt themselves, such as banging their heads or biting their hands.

Stereotypes about children with autism include rocking back and forth, quiet, soul-less and vacant presence, wandering inside their minds, and have the tendency to suddenly scream or bang their heads to the wall. Because of these stereotypes, they are often said to need the help of “an exorcist”.

But the right definition has been said by Rosie King as “they are living in another world”. Rosie King, an autistic teenager, explains in her Ted talk, “It’s like I’m walking in two worlds most of the time. There’s the real world, the world that we all share, and there’s the world in my mind, and the world in my mind is often so much more real than the real world.”

Sometimes an autistic child’s imagination takes over the command of the body, and makes them react on what is currently based upon “what is inside their wonderful minds”. That’s why they occasionally start to rock back and forth, sprint, or scream like hell without an apparent reason for that kind of act, which creates a communication problem for non-autistic people.

According to the most recent scientific findings in the autism researching process; 1 in every 88 children will be diagnosed with autism. But what science doesn’t know is the main gene that causes autism, as there are 200 to 400 different kinds of genes that can lead to autism.

So till this moment it is a genetic issue, that neither the parents nor the child can talk the blame for! So why give a hard time for both the parents and the children? Why exclude them from our society? Instead of try to understand them and how they can see the world.