Thoughts

This Is How I Felt As You Were Leaving

In the afternoon summer heat, she told me,

 

‘What ever happens, just leave me there!’

 

Words can not even come close to describe

 

How the features of my face would suggest

 

The ways of which the tiny strings of my heart were breaking

 

Slowly.

 

As she told me,

 

‘Goodbye!’

 

Following one last hug

 

One last physical connection withering away to a memory

 

As it was time to go

 

Watching you walk through that gate marked ‘passengers only’

 

As you were all set and ready for the annual pilgrimage

 

Something, to me, is as glorious as it is terrifying

 

Pushing your luggage cart

 

Alone

 

Was one of the hardest things I had yet to endure

 

It took every atom of my being

 

To stay my ground and not run towards you

 

To hold you longer

 

And kiss you until someone had to physically push me away

 

It was so hard to keep that stone face of mine

 

Without my eyes watering away

 

But you didn’t look back to see that state of me

 

And I’m thankful you didn’t

 

Because it wasn’t a pretty sight to see

 

I kept thinking

 

How often do I take people for granted

 

The people the I hold most dear

 

Not cherishing the time we have together

 

Not holding them closer

 

Physically

 

Not taking enough pictures with them

 

Videos

 

Not sharing my love for them enough

 

Why do I always count on seeing the people I love again

 

Why am I so sure?

 

But no more

 

You will come back to me, for I know

 

In my tough loving arms, you’ll see

 

That little girl you’ve raised to be

 

Is just like you, you’d see.

 

You’ll come back to me.

 

For my mother.